Lord have mercy! You don't know how retarded you are until you reread what your wrote. The last one was so stupid! So teenage retardedness! True, I would love to have another but the reponsiblility financially and emotionally can be draining. Do I want one to have another baby or to bring another life in the world? That or just to be pregnant and give birth again? May just to get the attention on some atomical level? If I look at it that way, or the thoughts of "why did I have the last one?" just makes me want to go in and get the surgery over with so I don't even have the option to have another. Shhhyyyit! Plus, I would like to have a life after children.....If I keep having them then when will I have time to be without children before I am too old? Plus, I am so close to thirty and found my first grey hair! Yuck right? Anyway, I should go veg in and watch some TV. Don't feel up to anything else. I really should go wake up Miss Thang so she sleeps tonight. That and the boy. Oh, and he did so well with his big sisters yesterday at hitting the ball. He will look so cute in a baseball uniform this Spring!
