I hate not having money!

You know, I really don't get it. I mean, I kinda do for now because I went to VA twice in a two week period for the birth of my niece. We make a HELL of a lot of money. We are left over with some $800 after bills and leaving $600 a month for food. Yet we are always hurting for money! I even have a family member paying me money monthly for a loan they owe me and we are STILL hurting! I allow my dh to spend here and there. Example: I was given $400 this past weekend for my loan. We spent $110 at Target. Dh decided he wanted a $20 game. He knew this had to last us through the week into the weekend. I relucantly agreed. Well, A**hole stuck in a $16 bottle of Ripped Fuel! This is how I feel I enable him. I allow it. I just am going to have to stick to my guns and be the B wach in this situation. I make a budget. A REASONABLE budget. Every two weeks I leave $300 for food and about $250 for incidentals. Mother F-R~! This is the base of my depression and crappy moods.