Feeling better!

I just sat in my huge garden tub for about 45 minutes, candles aglow, kids off watching a movie..............I feel so much better! It is aMAZING what a bubble bath can do for you. Now I can sit relaxed and watch my show, go to sleep and have a wonderful new day tomorrow!!!

yuck day

Today was a total YUCK day. I got sucked on the computer playing solitare and spider solitare while I watched my TiVo'ed shows from the night before. It brought me down and into the realm of "dead *ss". I didn't want to do anything, was weepy over some cutsy moments on TV. You know, the typical mood swinging pregnant woman. Then, after picking up the kids, I prompted them to wash the car with me. I had about an inch of mud caked on it from Saturday. (We had a G.S. event out at the camp and it had rained extensively most of last week. To get to camp, you have to drive up a three mile dirt road. I fishtailed the whole way up, giving the girls a good laugh. My car was so gross afterwards) Well, I got ichy *ss with them about little things. Again, go hormones. Next time, I am bringing it up to the hand wash place and pay the $30 to have it washed, detailed and waxed.


I am feeling much better now that I have vented a bit. The hormones are driving me nuts! It is the only thing that makes me feel pregnant. I have not been ill at all lately. I just get a bit tired or testy. In my mind, I can think and ease myself about everything............"this is my last!" LOL I have never been more at peace about the decision. I have waited for this feeling for a while. Plus, I can't afford to pay for college for anymore!!

Soap box time:

I have gone over this subject many times. I CANNOT stress it enough: IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD YOUR KIDS, DON'T HAVE MORE!!! I see it all too many times. "I want a baby. We can afford another BABY." Yeah, most people can afford a babies. Well, some can't even do that and still have more. Guess what happens when they get older....they cost more! They require clothes, school supplies (even home schooled kids need clothes and school supplies) High school hits and they want nicer clothes. Unless you are totally insensitive to a teenager as my parents were, you have to provide a bit more in the clothing department. Then there is college. Hardly anyone I come across thinks,"I have a realistic plan for college for my kids."
It is great that people have these 'large' families nowadays. I think it is super................if you can honestly pay for all of these kids, 4, 5, 6+ kids throughout their ENTIRE life.

OK, off my soap box. You can totally tell I am hormonal. It HAS to be another girl. ha!

I have a more serious issue that has come upon me. My sister has come up pregnant this past week. I find it hard to be happy for her because of their circumstances. Mind you I love her dearly and will totally love this child when s/he comes. Here is the story: The month that we concieved this baby, we had decided to quit trying because of drama in the family. (SIL had some issues. I vented about it on here) Well, we had one of those,"We forgot" Two seconds too late. HONESTLY! We always joked that we had given up on conceiving Emma and she was kind of an oops. She was a "wore a condom once and didn't after that" kind of thing. She was planned. Anyway, we had our oops (because was had been used to trying for the past three months.) and figured why not after that. She claimed that SAME month, the same thing happened to them. Then the following month, the same thing. THIS month, she told me about two weeks ago about them forgetting again. We then went into why they keep oopsing and why she wasn't on birth control. Mind you she was claiming up and down they were NOT trying and wanted to wait until their current child was 3. Her excuse for no BC was because she couldn't get into a dr until January. I find that a load of bull. I am so sorry. There are many dr offices in the area and even planned parenting that can hook you up if you really don't want to try. Well, she calls me up saying she is two weeks late and has a test. She then tells me a story of the condom breaking. A totally different story. What makes me irritated about all of this is that they were clearly trying. Why not just come out with it? The only reasoning is that she knows it is such a lousy time for them. Guilt over it? I mean come on! Ya think they would have learned from us about stupid times to conceive, our second as an example! We were moving, our car was broken and we were low on money. Hmmmm. They borrow money from his mom all the time just to eat, they have very little money, they are moving and don't fully know how it will all work out when they move, specifically health insurance, etc. Plus, she was on bed rest through most of her pregnancy, having to be hospitalized for the end of it and having the baby come 6 weeks early. I she saw how hard it was for us and we had a SOLID job with consistant health insurance. Why try and do it like us? I just hope that his family will be as active for them as she expects them to be. I will be too pregnant to help her and will not be there for her for the birth, even if it is to watch my niece. I pray that things work out ok for them. Especially for their dd that will pay in the end if it doesn't.

Well, I am off to get dinner ready. Got "heroes" on tonight. Woo Hoo! Love that show. I have to go over bills, budget for Christmas and plan to get my G.S and home projects in order. Ooh, and I have to get the kids scheduled in for their dental work. Yeah, can wait to pay from Emily's braces. HEY! IF the need them, you are required as a parent to provide.

It's been a while

I have been very busy! Between Girl Scouts and the house, I have no real time. We took the girls to a Scientist for a Day event. What fun that was, seriously! We learned about oyster reefs and how they are building more to help the environment. We actually started our own starters. We also pulled up some old ones and had the girls pick out some sea creatures: grass shrimp, crab, sea squirts....even a fish! The girls also learned about water Ph and we measured the saltiness of the sea AND of the brackish water the ships were in. (They have a carrier, submarine, destroyer and a coast guard cutter) After our event, we had a picnic and toured the ship and the boats. After seven hours of fun, I was spent.

We also had a friend and his mom visit us for dinner from WA state. They had to eat and run because of their schedule but it was awesome to see them again! We ate at the Crab House featured on A&E that got "flipped". That was last night. This weekend I go camping............JUST ADULTS!! WOO HOO! I love to get away, even if it is just for a weekend. The following weekend, we have a G.S. event AND a party to go to. I can't wait for November to get here! We will get a break from events and take a breather. I will hopefully be able to start feeling a little from my Mcnugget by then.

ANYWAY....I will begin walking again. I am feeling a bit more energized. I am so thankful that I didn't get morning sickness this time. I was able to keep up with things minus keeping my house clean. I did get it clean in time for my friend and his mom to come visit us at least. I am going to start up a project list now that I am getting things back to normal. I need to get some painting done and things of that nature before I get too big to get up on a ladder. I have until about January before I start to really show. We will see how that all goes.

Well, until I have more time...... ciao

BIG CAMP OUT!

First off, the Kkaki Ball was AWESOME. My hair was totally fab. Thank you Loni for doing my hair. It didn't budge at all. I actually slept on it and wore it during the day the next day. It is just too bad I won't be going next year. I will have a nursling to take care of.


Well, it has been a hard week and weekend. It starts on Friday. I, being the biggest preggo air head right now, scheduled my prenatal class (first visit before first ob) with Lizzie's doctor's appointment. MORON! Well, I had gotten kind of sick the night before and felt like I had swallowed thumb tacks that morning. I gutted throught two hours of my class with Emma and Liz in tow and then headed down the hall of the hospital to the pediatric office. Lizzie is offically going through puberty. Yippee... She was also put back on Adderal for her ADHD. I am really tickled with that. Lizzie is happy too. She knows she is struggling with it all. Well, after waiting in the pharmacy for about 15 minutes (worth not paying a dime for our meds) and going back to the OB to schedule my first appointment (I had to leave the class a little early for Lizzie's appointment. OH first ultrasound is on THURSDAY!), I really felt rank. I passed one of my girls' parents at the hospital and didn't even recognize him. I came home and thought I was going to die. I ate, picked up the other kids from school and took a nap. I went to bed sick, praying that I was better by morning for our Junior Jam prep. Lo and behold, God blessed me with being better! I still had a slight stomach ache but wasn't feeling sick or had to sit on the toilet for hours.

Our camp trip went great. The whole point of the weekend was to learn camping skills to go toward our Junior Jam this Spring. ( I will be 2 weeks away from my due date when we go) We learned to cook, use a compass, pitch tents, lash, tie knots and make fire. Posted is a pic of Lizzie with her fire she made all by herself! We also got to see a snake up close. No gators this weekend. Too cold I think. We also did a night hike to the DOLL HOUSE. The doll house is a small play house that has antique dolls inside. They are all really creepy looking. There are stories of the dolls moving and a little girl bleeding to death inside. All not true.

The one issue I had with the girls was with our tents. We have two HUGE tents. One is an eight man tent. We had seven girls in that tent. In our bigger tent, a cabin tent with a changing room, we had five girls. We all agreed that we would keep everyones gear in the changing room. Well, one specific girl didn't like it. She was our main trouble maker. The girls in the first tent claim that she went in their tent, messed everything up and took out a necklace from another girl from her bag and placed it neatly on the outside. It was all hearsay but I think there was some facts behind it. The girl with the necklace got yelled at for not putting it up when she did and didn't tell anyone about it. My co leader has rubbed a lot of the girls the wrong way. Two sisters tend to respond with disrespect toward her because they are not shown any respect from her, in their eyes. I tried to explain to them that she is just hard on the outside and good inside but the more she is hard on these girls, the more disrespectful they get. I spoke with the older girl about it but my co leader pushes too hard.

This one girl that was our trouble child happens to be the co leader's daughter. This girl was just an animal all weekend. She got worse and worse. My the time this morning rolled around, it was too much. She took up the changing room so the others couldn't get in, she ran around naked and declaring it to the world in the changing room and ultimately kept our girls from being on time. Of course Lizzie was last and was hollered at to get out in her jammies, a T-shirt and shorts. It was in the 60's. I stomped that one fast. OH! The worst was she was 'not feeling good' and wanted to go to bed. She threw a big fit, put on her jammies which are long (we just learned NOT to wear anything like this around the fire) to make smores after her mom said no matter what, she wouldn't get any. She whined the next day and after I said I was having my kids wash my car, she whined and pitched a fit when her mom told her she wasn't going to wash their car. I need to talk with my co leader and have a discussion about the behavior I saw this weekend. Between the catty gossip and our drama queen, we just need to gut through it and get us past it. I need to get a hard nose, tell my co leader how they feel and myself and get us back on track!

Well, other than our drama it went well. We had a first timer out there that kind of freaked when it got dark. She was going to sleep with us in our cabin and at the last minute decided to sleep in the tent. Midnight exactly, she was at our door. It was so frigging cold!!! I had to get up and move my stuff off the cot at my head and then walk down to the bathroom on the other side of camp. THANK YOU GOD for giving me a sweet sleeping bag. I bought it 3 years ago, $45 Eddie Bauer 30 degree sleeping bag, and actually got hot in the morning. Too cold to uncover but too hot to stay all zipped up. It was awesome! My van was so packed...can't wait for my 'Burban next year~!