yuck day

Today was a total YUCK day. I got sucked on the computer playing solitare and spider solitare while I watched my TiVo'ed shows from the night before. It brought me down and into the realm of "dead *ss". I didn't want to do anything, was weepy over some cutsy moments on TV. You know, the typical mood swinging pregnant woman. Then, after picking up the kids, I prompted them to wash the car with me. I had about an inch of mud caked on it from Saturday. (We had a G.S. event out at the camp and it had rained extensively most of last week. To get to camp, you have to drive up a three mile dirt road. I fishtailed the whole way up, giving the girls a good laugh. My car was so gross afterwards) Well, I got ichy *ss with them about little things. Again, go hormones. Next time, I am bringing it up to the hand wash place and pay the $30 to have it washed, detailed and waxed.


I am feeling much better now that I have vented a bit. The hormones are driving me nuts! It is the only thing that makes me feel pregnant. I have not been ill at all lately. I just get a bit tired or testy. In my mind, I can think and ease myself about everything............"this is my last!" LOL I have never been more at peace about the decision. I have waited for this feeling for a while. Plus, I can't afford to pay for college for anymore!!

Soap box time:

I have gone over this subject many times. I CANNOT stress it enough: IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD YOUR KIDS, DON'T HAVE MORE!!! I see it all too many times. "I want a baby. We can afford another BABY." Yeah, most people can afford a babies. Well, some can't even do that and still have more. Guess what happens when they get older....they cost more! They require clothes, school supplies (even home schooled kids need clothes and school supplies) High school hits and they want nicer clothes. Unless you are totally insensitive to a teenager as my parents were, you have to provide a bit more in the clothing department. Then there is college. Hardly anyone I come across thinks,"I have a realistic plan for college for my kids."
It is great that people have these 'large' families nowadays. I think it is super................if you can honestly pay for all of these kids, 4, 5, 6+ kids throughout their ENTIRE life.

OK, off my soap box. You can totally tell I am hormonal. It HAS to be another girl. ha!

I have a more serious issue that has come upon me. My sister has come up pregnant this past week. I find it hard to be happy for her because of their circumstances. Mind you I love her dearly and will totally love this child when s/he comes. Here is the story: The month that we concieved this baby, we had decided to quit trying because of drama in the family. (SIL had some issues. I vented about it on here) Well, we had one of those,"We forgot" Two seconds too late. HONESTLY! We always joked that we had given up on conceiving Emma and she was kind of an oops. She was a "wore a condom once and didn't after that" kind of thing. She was planned. Anyway, we had our oops (because was had been used to trying for the past three months.) and figured why not after that. She claimed that SAME month, the same thing happened to them. Then the following month, the same thing. THIS month, she told me about two weeks ago about them forgetting again. We then went into why they keep oopsing and why she wasn't on birth control. Mind you she was claiming up and down they were NOT trying and wanted to wait until their current child was 3. Her excuse for no BC was because she couldn't get into a dr until January. I find that a load of bull. I am so sorry. There are many dr offices in the area and even planned parenting that can hook you up if you really don't want to try. Well, she calls me up saying she is two weeks late and has a test. She then tells me a story of the condom breaking. A totally different story. What makes me irritated about all of this is that they were clearly trying. Why not just come out with it? The only reasoning is that she knows it is such a lousy time for them. Guilt over it? I mean come on! Ya think they would have learned from us about stupid times to conceive, our second as an example! We were moving, our car was broken and we were low on money. Hmmmm. They borrow money from his mom all the time just to eat, they have very little money, they are moving and don't fully know how it will all work out when they move, specifically health insurance, etc. Plus, she was on bed rest through most of her pregnancy, having to be hospitalized for the end of it and having the baby come 6 weeks early. I she saw how hard it was for us and we had a SOLID job with consistant health insurance. Why try and do it like us? I just hope that his family will be as active for them as she expects them to be. I will be too pregnant to help her and will not be there for her for the birth, even if it is to watch my niece. I pray that things work out ok for them. Especially for their dd that will pay in the end if it doesn't.

Well, I am off to get dinner ready. Got "heroes" on tonight. Woo Hoo! Love that show. I have to go over bills, budget for Christmas and plan to get my G.S and home projects in order. Ooh, and I have to get the kids scheduled in for their dental work. Yeah, can wait to pay from Emily's braces. HEY! IF the need them, you are required as a parent to provide.