Hurricane morons!!!

I literally slept through the hurricane. (I really needed a nap. This pregnancy makes me sleepy!) Man, and all those country bumpkins from NC freaking out about the hurricane, worrying about flooding and getting supplies......I bet all their grocery stores were packed and people were going around like chickens with their heads cut off. My sister said that their governor put them under a state of emergency yesterday. A bunch of freaking morons, the whole state. That and none of them can drive. (Had to deal with NC drivers in VA all the time) The worst drivers of all.....FLORIDA. They all have their blinders on and don't pay attention. Then again, who broke the glass in her sideview mirror? LOL

Well, I have to make dinner. I am trying to figure out if I should tell my bil and sil about my pregnancy. Well, they are going to find out one way or the other.......

getting my money back

I JUST got a call from my insurance agency. I get my $250 back this week!! Yippee!!! This totally feels awesome. Good payback for all the pain of dealing with that a**hole in the accident. I did break the car again though. LOL I have been scatterbrained for the past week. At least now I know why. Well, I hit a garbage can with my side mirror. I have done this three times, once at 45 and I hit an eighteen wheeler. I hit a mail box the last time. Well, the glass broke. The mirror itself and the motor were fine. I have to go up and order it. It will cost me a whopping $22. I can skip over the $40 to have them do it and I will fix it. It just pops into place. Ooh, now that I have this money coming in, I am getting my car detailed on Monday! Vaccuumed, waxed, the whole works! Thank you Mary for the helpful hint on where to go!


Well, I have told all of my family and friends. My dad was like,"Again?" LOL He was messing around and proceded to tell me one of his famous," A guy walked into a bar..." jokes. He is sending Emma ice skates for her birthday. My parents are notoriously late. As long as they notice, we don't care. Well, I have a few doulas picked out in the area. I am going to wait a month or two and then start calling and meeting them. And it begins.......................................

Guess who is pregnant?

Yup. I am pregnant for the final time. This will be number FIVE. I guess we know why I have been so tired now! I have never been this tired so soon or started to get nausea either. Must be my age. Man! I am an old woman! On a serious note: my son would really like a brother. I would like a son also. My daughters would all like another boy in the house. You know, it would be cool but a girl would be neat too! Evylyn. I have had the name picked out since Emma was in my belly. This would be it either way. I have my boy so either way, I win. I would just like a happy, healthy baby.........that is quiet! LOL Kidding. Happy and healthy suit me just fine!

Kitchen remodel!

Yes, I have a brand new house yet I am doing a slight remodel! First off, we have this huge kitchen with not enough cabinets or counter space. First thing when we get out bonus this October, I am getting this cool kitchen island with a 4 inch wood cutter board top. Here is a link to the one I am getting:

http://highhorseranch.net/Country_Manor_Island.htm

I plan on putting a oval chef hanging rack over it. I am also replacing the counter tops with something nicer. I don't know yet what I want....just a similar color. I need to make a Lowe's trip to get a better idea of what. Also, I am painting my kitchen RED. Yes, RED. My kitchen is very airy and bright. Everything in there is either black or red. I will definitely have to do some before and after shots. My room is almost done. I just need to find and new comforter set for my bed. Then I can go with some type of valance above the windows. I still need to get my shelf painted. Maybe I can do it during the hurricane/tropical storm that is going to run through here on Thursday. Then, I need to go in and paint Michael's room. Once his walls are done, then Jeff Gordon bed, here we come! I already have one can of glitter blue spray paint that matches perfectly. There is also a neon yellow color for the number.

I have so many ideas I want to cover during the day while the kids are at school. I can come up will mini projects for Emma to do while I am working. Plus, she loves computer games! She amazes all of our friends and family with her computer abilities. She can shut down, turn on, sign on, you name it she can do it. She signs on using the windows button on the keyboard even! We have not started with her potty training yet though. I am going to wait until SHE is ready and let her train herself. There is no need to push her into it and have all kinds of accidents. I don't want her to regress at all. I had all kinds of problems with Elizabeth with this. Emily was a breeze because I let her do it on her own. She was fully potty trained before her 3rd birthday. Michael was during the day around then but wet the bed for a while. He has to be woken up in the morning or he might again. He is a heavy sleeper. My mom wet the bed until she was 8 so it runs in the family.
Since putting myself back together so to speak, things have gotten easier. I get up, drive the kids to school, EXCERSIZE, feed and play with Emma, do G.S. business and clean. The Lord has blessed us ten fold over. We are all healthy, we have a new car, new house, and Mike and I have a wonderful marriage. I pray for those that are not there yet. I pray that everyone can be deep down happy with their lives. I have seen people try to buy their happiness one too many times. It will always fall through. You have to be happy with yourself before you can grow. I have learned this the hard way in so many different ways. Words of wisdom: You can be as showy as a peacock but it doesn't hide what is underneath all the glitz and glamour. An ugly little bird with pretty feathers. What is worse: he knows it.

Well, I am off to do some G.S. business and clean! :) Plus, Emma looks like she needs a tickle!

walkin' mama

I don't know what hit me this weekend! I guess I needed to catch up with my sleep, BADLY. I am much better today. I didn't want to for my walk but did anyway. What made it worse was Emma didn't want to go either. As soon as we got rolling and she turned her Leapster on, we were good to go. It was HOT out. I mean H*O*T!! I am going to just start going to the gym from now on. The track is nice and air conditioned. You know that if the baby is sweaty and hot, it is bad. Her PegPerego stoller completely closes, all the way to the tray. Completely covered. It was THAT hot out. I was covered in sweat. I did lose a pound off of it though. SERIOUSLY! I now have five pounds to go until I hit my first goal. My goal time is my birthday, Nov 9th. I am absolutely sure I will get to it! Tom is fixin' to visit so I have some bloat going on anyway. I should be in the 220s in two weeks!! Shoot, I can have it by the end of next week if I really work!
I am very pumped to lose! I have been for about a month now. I have really worked hard. It started last year, Marchish. I was a whopping 258. I looked in an old journal and my highest was 260. Mind you, I am 5 foot 9 so it hides easier. I mean it isn't totally invisible by any means! The cool thing though is no matter how fat I had gotten to, I never had a big butt or super big legs. THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSING ME WITH A SMALL BEHIND! He did make me a bit top heavy but nothing the military couldn't take care of. GO NAVY. I talked with a friend that went in and had it done. Once I get down to 200, I am so there! Once I am sure that I am not having anymore children, I am getting a tummy tuck. I have looked into it and it really isn't that expensive. Having my chest reduced is twice as much hence, GO NAVY! I have back pain, my bra indents my shoulders but they have shunk and inch so maybe I can get them down on my own. I have lost 1 1/2 inches on my waist, an inch on my arms........I feel so much slimmer! I am so going to lose all this baggage. I feel healthier! Now you know what will happen? I will get pregnant. I have this one covered actually. I only gained 20 with my last child. That is with little effort other than watching what I eat. If I continue to walk and keep active like I have, I should be good to go. When I keep active, it keeps the morning sickness down. The only thing that really worries me is my hip pain. I went through so much when I was pregnant with Emma. My hips would dislocate when I would roll over after sleeping on my side. If I do become pregnant, I plan on getting one of those Swedish posturpedic mattresses or a nice pillow top. We are due for a new mattress soon anyway. But then again, this is IF I get pregnant. The chances are slim to none. I would like to have one last child in like 2 0r 3 years.
Well, off to get my kids from school. Michael baby has baseball practice tonight. He is the bat boy for an AAU 12 and under team and will start is actual job of getting the bats and stuff. All the boys, including Michael, get their uniforms today plus Michael gets his helmet for his job. He LOVES getting to play with the big boys. He still has his side burns like his favorite baseball player, Joe Mauer. GO TWINS!!

Really tired

Yeah, my body caught up with me today. I have been just drained lately! I don't know if it is the walking, school starting or a combo of the two. After our G.S. event today, which was awesome I might atdd, I watched a movie and took a 4 hour nap. I am ready for bed right now and it is 7 pm. I am taking in some coffee right now so I can get the days AND YESTERDAYS dishes done. It has been really rough on me getting used to our new schedule. Anyway, I will try to get out of this rut any way I can!

Our movie was so awesome! I have never been to an IMAX movie before. Yes, lame I know. Well, I have been to a IMAX style show where your chair moves along with you. Anyway, it was wild safari style. It was as if we were riding in the back of this woman's jeep. My son loved it! All the girls had a good time as well. They got to make jewelry, masks, doorhangers and get to see the prizes for the fall product sale. It was a great way to kick start the year!

I am going to go and get some work in. My coffee is kicking in and I am ready to clean my kitchen!

good workout

I had a wonderful workout today! I went up to the fitness center and used the indoor track. It has been rainy for the past two days which made it almost impossible to walk outside. I had already missed everyday except for Monday, due to appointments and errands. It really did feel awesome. I had not been up there since the Spring. Emma was a pain but that was because I couldn't find her Leapster. It was a last minute thing to go up and walk. It is only open from 11:30 to 12:30 so I had to hustle to get up there. I knew it would take me like 4o minutes to get my full walk on. The best part is I ran part of it. The last six, minus my two cool down laps, I ran the back half of four laps. It didn't even hurt and I didn't feel like dying! LOL I can feel my sides really leaning and becoming stronger. OTHER FAT PEOPLE OUT THERE>>>>> GET OUT AND WALK! I am telling you, I feel so much better. I procrastinated and came up with excuses but now that I am really getting into a routine, it is getting easier and I am feeling so much better! It won't be much longer before I am at my goal!

brain fart

Who do you think came up with this term? I would really love to know...I have brain farts all the time! No air escapes my head.....well....Ok, I get it. LOL
Our first meeting went so well! I think Nida and I make an awesome team! She is more strict, knows all the rules yet knows when to be easy. I am more the laid back, best friend type of person. I help smooth the waves easily. I know that all of our girls will have a BLAST this year. I also know that they will learn so much as well. I had one of our three leaders tell me she was nervous and didn't know how to react to her new responsibility. Our troop last year didn't have her doing anything that a Junior Girl Scout should be doing...AT ALL. Our last leader ran it all herself, not even asking for my help. This year, we are putting it in the hands of the girls. If they hit a snag, oviously they can ask us to help. I let her know that and KNOW she will grow with this experience. All of them will. Nida and I are on the same page with this. This is the reason I wanted to lead. I wanted them to GET IT. Learn, grow, lead. These are our future leaders......if I can help one girl become a better woman when she grows up, then I have done what I have set out to. THIS IS WHY....why I volunteer, why I do all the training, why I spend so much time on it. The best part is, my two daughters are apart of this. I did this for them, for the girls in the troop, for ME.


Ok, yes it sounds super drama~ish but it is the truth. No dramatics, just the truth. Have a great day!

Doin' my thang!

Yeah, I have been walking. I only walked twice for a total of 4 miles. I did 2 miles this morning. It felt awesome.....I feel so good afterwards. I updated my Ipod with some new music to pump me up! I get rockin' and Miss Emma plays her Leapster the whole time. I even got some crunches in after my walk! I am set and determined to get back to my prepregnancy weight from ALL of my children. It is do or die at this point. I would like my final pregnancy to be easy. I know that if I get my body back in shape, I could sail through it.


In other news, I have not heard from my sil. I she threatened me with something that would never stand up so I am just not going into her dirty little world. Threats don't bother me. The only thing I regret is our kids won't see each other. Her selfishness just down right pisses me off. The only thing I can do at this point is do what I need to for my family and for myself.

Our troop is doing very well so far! The first meeting was seriously nuts! The girls goofed off half of the time. I did get a feel for how the girls really are though, and that was what I wanted out if it. This next meeting will be splitting the girls into their patrols. I will show them how things will be run for the year. Our first event is this coming weekend. We will get to see an Imax movie! Very cool~


My goals this week: get the house clean!! Get in THREE Walks, 2 miles each. Prep my shelf for paint

whacked out SIL

Lots of stuff has gone down lately. This is an email I posted to some friends explaining the start of it all:

Ok, this starts out back when I was first married and just had Lizzie. We allowed Patty, my sil to live with us and get started down in Orlando. Well, we didn't have a car so we had a married friend go pick her up from the airport. She to this day thinks we tried to set them up. Well, they ended up 'getting together' despite him being married and having a boy a week older than Lizzie. I stopped talking to her and he ends up sending her home to her abusive boyfriend, the reason she was down with us. Oh, and she is 17 at the time. After the fact, we found out she got pregnant with him and had an abortion.
That is the first part. Well, when we moved to VA to his ship from SC after FL, (FL and SC were his schools) he met Matt, Patty's current dh. She came down for the summer while I was pregnant with Emily to try it again, this time with her father. Matt and her became good friends. He loaned us his car which we ended up buying eventually because yet again, we did not have a car. ( we were super poor back then) She went back to MN and her dad moved to FL, where he is originally from. The following summer after this, Mike, my dh and Matt were out for 6 months. Matt ended up being flown home because he got hit by a car overseas. Dang ol' drunken sailors! He got drunk and thought he fell off a wall but his injuries, a fractured pelvis, were conducive with getting hit by a car. She came down and they ended up hooking up and moving in.
Well, they got married, had a boy 7 months younger than Michael and now have a baby girl who is 14 mos old. Well, she has not been happy. She is high maintenance and expects every second of his attention either on her or the kids. He has not been totally wining and dining her lately and she is not happy. Nah, the brand new house, almost brand new Ford Explorer, the jet ski, four wheeler, lap top, bling bling, vacations more than once a year are not wining and dining. ANYWAY>>>>
Come to find out Isaac, the married guy from FL either contacted her or she contacted him. She got a letter from him right before she got married but didn't, or so she says didn't contact him. He divorced then remarried for the same reason, she got knocked up and now has a total of FOUR boys. He is divorced and has the younger 3 boys. We also found out she met him for lunch. She says they didn't do anything but Matt found a pregnancy test in her purse. He got his surgery after Carly was born, the baby. She is going to move in with me, with the kids. She will either commute to Columbia or work something out with her work. I will watch Miss Carly (WOO HOO!) and pick the boys up from school. Matt would get them on the weekends. Well, he is heartbroken, first love, first girlfriend, first you know.... He threatened to take the kids. He threatened to have her committed today I just found out. He wrote out a separation agreement where he gets sole custody and she has to pay like $600 a month. She makes like $2000 a month and her car note is like $600. He forged her name to get it for her in her name as it was.

That was the start. Yesterday, I went up to help try and work something out. It didn't go too well. What happened was Patty stayed the night at the house beacause he cried for her, something like that. Well, they argued in the morning, she claimed she was going to kill herself, after he said he would take the kids. (she didn't mean it literally) She locked herself in the bathroom and he pushed the door in. He filed a report on her that she was going to hit herself and make it look like he did it. She filed one about the door and that she was afraid to go home. Well, his mom and sister came down from VA. I came to help it all go ok and just stay inbetween. I got there, said my hi's and said that I was going to get Patty. I picked her up from McD's and brought her back to get her clothes. She talked to her son and held her baby, got her clothes and agreed to talk with Matt. (well, she watched her boy ride is bike and shoved her baby at me after holding her for a few minutes, telling me she has to get used to not being held by her. Then she gave in and held her fingers as the baby walked around in the garage) He was a stone as well as she and fought back and forth. He wrote up and agreement that she didn't like and he wouldn't budge. We tried working on things but she ended up throwing the papers at him, throwing crap around and taking off outside with her stuff. I followed her but she went in the garage and threw a cd player at Matt. Then she went back in the garage and threw some more stuff around. She wanted to smash in the windshield of his truck but I talked her out of it. Instead, she jumped in it and took off through the front grass. She stopped and flipped out at me, asking what can she do. She grabbed her stuff and took off. Sheriff came and went. She called me told me to F off and goodbye. Then called again to say his truck was at McDonalds. She called my dh, her brother and told him goodbye, she is taking pills and no one can stop her. She also said she was in a hotel then hung up. I hung around for a while while Matt frantically called to see if he could find the hotel she was in. I finally left after talking with Mike and his mom about a hundred times.
I got home around midnight after stopping off at Taco Bell. (I didn't eat in like 12 hours) We watched Dexters Lab and he was eating a huge burrito. Anyway.......Yesterday I was on the phone off and on with Patty and her mom. Patty called me when we were in Target asking if she could still stay at our house. I said yes as long as she didn't bring any drugs in my house or anyone over. She then said,"Oh, so I am a druggie and a Whore now." I pointed out I just wanted it known and said out loud. I really didn't want any of that crap around my kids AT ALL. She called while we were out to eat as well. (celebrating the first day of school!) Later that evening their mom called and told me that Patty told her that she was on the side of the road in GA, taking her pills and video taping herself before she died. Then the next conversation was she was getting tired and swerving on the road and was going to stop at a hotel. She told her mom in one of the conversations that I told her she was a chicken sh*t and should just take the pills. I swear I NEVER said that. I left a nasty message to the tune of, "I never said that, I am mad at you, don't call until you have cooled down." Of course there was nasty language inbetween all of that. I was pissed! Today she left a message while I was painting (WOO HOO! My room is finally done and YELLOW!) and said a lot of nasty crap like,"Oh you are mother of the year and how it is documented in VA that I would rather sleep than drive my kid to kinder." I was up at 5:30 AM every morning driving my dh to work, FORTY FIVE MINUTES AWAY and then driving the kids to school. Then she blabbed about I told Matt about her interactions with them the I wrote above in this post. I HAVE NOT TALKED TO MATT SINCE YESTERDAY! I told him yesterday that I was butting out and letting them deal with it. I told him that I would not lie about anything asked. I am done with her until she finds some help. I cannot have her around my kids and I think she shouldn't be around her own until she figures out what is up with herself.

Enough venting about that...MY KIDS START SCHOOL TOMORROW! I am so excited! Lizzie got new shoes today and Michael got a fresh haircut yesterday. Lizzie has a nervous stomach and Emily is just plain nervous. It will be just Emma and myself at home! Our plan is to walk every morning we can. On rainy days, we can go up to the rec center and use the track. I am charging my Ipod as we speak! Everything will even itself out back into place once we all get on a good schedule.



For now, we have to pray that Patty finds her way.......

evening out....

Things have been evening out around here. First off, Happy Birthday Emma! She is now a three year old! We took her to a water park today. Oh, boy, we all had fun. It was about 104 out there but you really couldn't tell. I thought it would be so miserable out there. I think the humidity has come down.
Well, Emma got a Leapster Lmax, a Dora game, a charging system for it, NickJr colorbook, Dora puzzle and a pink Little Tykes golf toddler set. She asked for it, I kid you not. She has had an awesome day today. All her birthday pics are in her baa kini (bikini). What a good day. We also had my sil come with her two kids and her dh. She and the kids will live with us until they sell the house and decide what will happen. I think this will help her a ton. She just needs a little space to figure out what is going on in her head. Plus, the boys get to go to kinder together. I have always wished that could happen but under better circumstances. It will all iron itself out in the end.
I had better go and do something, like nurse my red shoulders. I got more brown than burn but it is still a bit sore. ~~ I am so at peace right now. :)

crap day

If I could have just stayed in bed today and not woke up AT ALL, then it would have been a perfect day. I took all of the kids grocery shopping. OH MY LORD. Yeah, that sucked. Emma was driving me nuts the whole time. The dentist was a MILLION times worse. It took two hours to get the kids done. Ooh, to top it all off, they need like almost $1000 worth of work done. AND Emily is being sent out to an orthodontist. Yeah, having four kids is finally catching up to us. Thank goodness for our October bonus. We will still have to finance braces. Yeah, I don't have $5000 just laying around.


I have the ultimate dilemma going on. I love my sil. I really do. I like talking with her, hanging out.........I really love our friendship. Then everything that has happened has turned it into a twisted, bloody mess. She is turning into a "Noel". This goes way back to a friendship I had in VA. I bent over backwards for this girl just to be dragged through the coals. She played the one up game, CONSTANTLY. Look where it got her: 6 year old son ignored, 3 yr old with MAJOR health issues (can't see, hear, etc), a husband paralyzed from the chest down, and now has a sperm donor baby. Just to make things more interesting if taking care of two handicapped people wasn't enough. The best example is cars. Cars has always been a sore subject in our house. We went about TWO YEARS without one. We have always appreciated our vehicle. We have always talked about wanting this one or that, for fun. Well, this dumb ass goes out and buys a USED Expedition, 42,000 miles with a 7 year $500 monthly. She comes and shows it off for 5 seconds where I told her that she would get pregnant, not work and then wouldn't be able to afford it. DING, DING! What happened? She got pregnant, couldn't work IN THE 3RD MONTH, and her dh lost his truck. They couldn't afford that even so they went to get a SMALLER vehicle. Well, we went and bought a brand new van in the middle of all that. Our 3rd child needed a bigger carseat and three carseats don't fit in the back of a Calalier too well. She threw a fit literally in the front yard so they went and got the Chrysler version with more options. Mind you she had ONE child at the time. It went up to 600 a month. Well, I bought a new van almost 2 years ago, end of lease ( that is the only thing we could afford) and got nice options. Well, then she needed to get a new van because she needed the stow and go and got the SAME COLOR VAN and exact same options. LOOONG STORY SHORTer (honestly, there are more stories if you care to hear): This is a Noel

She has pretty much come out and said her and her dh think we are "shit" and "trash", etc. So we only make like $56,000 and year and they make six figures I guess combined. The one thing she said that really pissed me off is yet another car comment. She has been talking about getting one of the new Mustangs for like 2 or 3 weeks now. She then made a comment during the commotion of her little tantrum of how much I love them. Then goes on to say that all she wants is a new Ford Fusion. Yes, I like them. They are kick ass. I LIKE THE DODGE CHARGERS! If I were to buy that kind of car, kids or not, I would buy the Charger. Plus, I am not a big Ford fan. If she even listened one IOTA instead of talking about woe is me, we are hurting for money because my dh put all the money away for this or that. Then don't go on a $10,000 vacation! Don't buy jet skis and dirt bikes. Don't over indulge your son. Dang, he doesn't even play with half of the toys he has. When you have to turn your diningroom into a playroom because of toy overflow, that should be a hint. Yes, I get that he has no siblings to play with yet( the baby is too small yet) but she would have to do this anyway. Look, don't get me wrong.......I get her, this is how she is and I still love her for it. These things bother me but then I get past them because I have plenty of faults to rant about. The one thing that killed me was the lies. The lies about this dude she has been in contact with for the past month and not a word. We are supposed to be really good friends, I thought best buds. I bet Stephanie knows, her other buddy. The one her dh referred to as trailer park trash so to speak. She can put her mask on or take it off.........I can't get past it. If it isn't bipolar, it is depression. Truth in the end: it was a guy. She will never be happy. If She runs off with the guy in the sunset, it will be something else that makes her unhappy. Just like her father. You have to learn to be happy. Learn to get past the what ifs. Learn to live with what happened and can never be. If not, you will go through life unhappy and miserable. In the end, you have God and your family. That is why I will forgive.........but I will never forget. How does that saying go Hurt me once, shame on you, hurt me again, shame on me. Well, this is #2.

I feel much better now that I have that off of my chest. It has really been eating at me. All the two faced bull crap. Getting the,"so you think I am bipolar,"or"It isn't the weightloss pills THIS TIME." thing thrown in my face about a thousand times crap got old. Recalling the past month and comments that have been made or recanted have been stuck in my brain. Sorry. Plus, my weightloss blogger has been down so I can't talk to my buddies on there. I am so going walking tomorrow! I haven't gone yet this week with all the hoopla of denists and car appointments. Boy, I need the stress buster now!! Gotta go make dinner! Oh, and kudos to my baby sister who had her gall bladder removed on Monday and is home on Percocette. Rock on Goolosh! Love ya!