We are almost moved in!!!!!

Yes! We have closed, I have painted all but Emily and Emma's room, and the washer, dryer and sectional are moved over.....YES! The fridge rolled in yesterday and our diningroom table came today. Talk about BEAUtiful! ~sigh~ The fridge is a midgrade with a snack drawer and lockout feature on the ice and water. The diningroom table is a detailed oak formal that seats eight. The fabric on the seats matches the diningroom paint so well! Today, the beds go over and we go and buy faux wood plantation blinds. I am so at peace right now. Boy though, Sunday I will battle it out and FINALLY go and get Christmas shopping done. I have to go find Michael a Grave Digger power wheels up at the Walmart. That will be a total BEEwatch to put together. I remember how fun it was to do the girls' Barbie Jeep back in the day....

Off to the new house!!

Things are just off right now... LOL

Yes, things are so off! All you can really do is laugh it all off. We still have yet to get our money. We were supposed to close today but we can't without the money. Well, guess what! Brentwood wasn't ready either. ~Fhew!!~ Now I don't feel so bad. We did a second walk through Monday and the carpet was still not right. I felt so bad for the guy. He was so embarrassed....He was so red from what I guess was anger that they had not finished it. Oh, well right? LOL At least my teeth don't hurt! :)
Yes, I am scheduled for my consultation with the oral surgeon next week. I am having four wisdom teeth out. Cool, huh? LoL......I am just a bit terrified. Going to the dentist did break the ice for me and get me over myself. I plan on getting the kids in one by one after my surgery.
Here is a new issue we are having. Elizabeth has a bald spot on the top of her head! I kid you not. I kind of noticed it last night but thought her hair was parted funny. Well, this morning it was the size of a quarter. I don't get it at all. I am going to see if I can't get her in tomorrow to see what is up with all of that.
Anyway, I am going to go finish dinner and help the girls with their homework. CIAO~

Ahhhh! Much better!

In a funk....

I am in a major funk tonight. I feel like death is over my head right now. Like I won't live much beyond this year. I hate it when I get in these moods. I am lightheaded, restless, anxious, down... I don't really get it. It has to be from all the pain meds I have been taking for my mouth. Oiy, I can't wait to get in this Tuesday..... ~sigh~

We had a bloop...fixed though!!!

YEE HA! Dixie Stampede was AWESOME!

Yes, I had a BLAST! Shoot, everyone of us that went had a blast!
This weekend, we took our troop up to Myrtle Beach to see Dolly Parton's Dixie Stampede Christmas show. WOW! First off, the ride up went smooth. I had six kids in my car.....Enough said! LOL We watched the preshow and then were taken back for the show and dinner, well lunch in our case. The show was AMAZING. Shoot, the food was even better! Each person, including the kids, were given a biscuit, soup, an entire rotisserie chicken(small), a strip of loin, half a baked potato, an ear of corn and a turnover. Needless to say, we were all pretty full! Oh! The show actually went over the real reason we have Christmas, baby Jesus and all. There were also pig races, ostrich races and adult volunteers on horse sticks! One of our sets of parents paricipated and two ladies from our service unit.
The only bad part of this trip was the gift shop. We waited for over TWO HOURS in line. Try doing this with a bunch of Girl Scouts and a five year old boy.....
Some of the parents were a bit dissappointed to hear that our leader went to the aquarium afterwards and didn't invite any of us to go. I was just glad that I was able to be there to make sure that all the kids went home with whom they were supposed to. If I would have known....anyway.
Right after the girls were all picked up, we headed over to a hockey game. Yes, I totally squished too much into one day. Oh, we had a great time. My two year old was already there with her daddy. She spent the day with him at the tailgating party that happened during the day there, which was perfect for her. Oh, did I meantion this kid LOVES hockey? LOL She was good almost the whole game. The last period was too much for her. She was just plain tired. She did go to sleep really well that night though at least.
The one downer of the weekend was we were supposed to go to a birthday party. My sil came last minute and we had to bail out of it. She was already half way here from Columbia and my dh had to work....I feel bad because I bailed out of a meeting this week because of sickness. I feel like a flake..... well can't change it now~!

Ups and downs......

Well, we close on the 16th of November, a week early!!! This gives me an ENTIRE week of prep. Painting, moving the easy stuff, etc. I am going to bring over our small TV, buy an inexpensive DVD player and the Emma's Dora couch. They can do that while I paint and move stuff.

My BIG downer....
My weight... I looked at all the pics from Locomotion and am appalled by the pics of me. I only had one of myself but another woman had some of all of us...including me. Ish! I am totally mortified. I don't have any excuse other than I am lazy and eat too much! LOL I will get a hold of my weight some day.....just not today! LOL Soon.......

Girl Scout Locomotion!

WOW! I had the best time! From SWAPS to great food, it was an awesome event. I didn't get to see any gators or snakes this time, but I did see the biggest FROG I have ever seen!
The first night was pretty warm. I woke up hot and sweaty in the middle of the night. I also woke up thinking I heard a snake slither into our bunk room. I looked under all the beds from the safety of my bed with my flashlight. The second night, about nine of us moved our mattresses to the living area and slept on the floor. I was so paranoid that a Palmetto bug (MONSTER COCKROACH) would get in bed with me. I talked a bit in my sleep, stood up once, and sat up about a million times that night. We had a good laugh in the morning about it!
Seriously, I had an awesome time. I learned a lot and got to really know my service branch members. I cannot wait until next year!

The house is officially ours!

Yes, it is official now! On Saturday, we opened our escrow account and today we signed the contract on the house. The "for sale" sign is down and a "SOLD" sign is in its stead. Woo Hoo! I am so excited and happy!!! We will close the week of Thanksgiving and will move in that weekend. Thank God we will be going to our friend Kennedy's house for dinner! LOL WoW! I am still in disbelieve.......I need to start packing!!
The other good thing going on is all the Girl Scout activities that are planned: Dixie Stampede, Disney on Ice, Juliette Low party....by the time it is all over, there will be two weeks to go!

Crappy dream

I had the crappiest dream ever last night. Lord, I hate dreams like that. It was one of those,"I had an F'd up childhood" dreams that had my step dad giving me hell in it. I was also pulled over by police by the them shooting out one of my tires. Told ya it was messed up!

I am also worried about finances. We have money but I am just so worried over it all falling through the cracks like usual. I don't want to jeopardize purchase of our new house by stupid mistakes! I will keep on it and just hope for the best.

Now that was a stupid response. I WILL take hold of it all and we will be fine.

Still waiting!

Yes, we have to wait until the week of Thanksgiving to buy our house. That is when we get our downpayment. Do you know how hard it is to wait that long? The good thing is they are replacing the carpet today. Mind you it is a new house and no one has ever lived in it but there were some minor flaws. They decided to completely replace ALL the carpet. They are also doing the touch up paint and all that stuff. Luckily, after all the events we have planned in October, it should go by faster. Shoot, after we take the troop to Dixie Stampede in the beginning of November, we only have three weeks to go!

WE GOT THE HOUSE!!!!

Yes, you heard me right!! We got it! We were approved the full $198,ooo. I am just so tickled! We close the day before Thanksgiving. I am very excited to get into it! We went through it again yesterday. It is such a beautiful home. The best part, no one has EVER lived in it! Yes, a brand new home! ~sigh~ Now I have to go and start getting this house ready for moving.......

Another big story here in the low country....
My brother in law put his truck in the lake! LOL Yes, the Red Neck yacht club....He was loading up the jet ski from the ramp but the water was lowered in the lake to work on the dam. Well, it slipped into the drink! His little S10 sank like a rock. My 4 yr old nephew was standing on the dock, poor guy! He was very upset. Then they had to run home to call because his phone was in the truck! Luckily, it was paid off and was given $6000 for it. He went out and bought a new truck last night. A BEUtiful F150, fully loaded. You know, the only thing that came good out of it was he was looking to buy a new truck anyway! That and Andrew wasn't in the car when it happened.

Got pulled over on base!

Yes, I got pulled over on base! Get this, I didn't stop long enough at a stop sign. Am I joking? Yeah, I wish....there is no monotary payment. You just lose points and when you get to 20, your sticker is scraped off and you are not allowed on base. LOL I lost 2 or 3 points he said. I personally think it is hilarious! I stopped but it was more of a rolling stop. Oh, well. My feelings are so hurt....notice my sarcasm....LOL

Today I have a parent/teacher conference with Lizzie's teacher. I am assuming it is over her progress. I am hoping she is doing better than she did before her meds. I have to address her hearing issues as well. Poor kid has so much going against her. At least she has us to back her up. I will fight tooth and nail for her!

Girl Scouts are today. I am behind on a Try it. I know that it will all clear up. I need to remember to adjust for these things. We are going to have a puppet show today. I am hoping it goes well. We soon will find out!

We had a wonderful weekend!

This weekend we went to my niece's baptism. My dh and I were her Godparents, just like with Andrew. It went very well. Nice and short. I also got to hang out with my mil. That was really nice. Patty, Patty(Patty was named after her mother), Aunt Janny and I went to the mall. That was fun minus not having money to spend. Remember, we need it for that house.....
The only downside was having to go to lunch with my fil. He sat and begged off my kids after he had Lasagne. (we went to Olive Garden) Then he got on Mike about Mike having a root canal and not telling him and then about him taking something....Long stupid story.
Well, yesterday, our last day there we took them all to Edventure, Columbias childrens museum. It has this HUGE boy that you can go inside. My boy was too afraid of him. His brain has electricity and weird noises which spooked him out. LOL
The one thing that bothered me this weekend was all the smoking. Everyone minus Matt and I smoked. Not just outside but inside. I was so sick Sunday morning from all the exposure. My parents smoked around me constantly so I was sick all the time. Now Andrew has been. Even Carly has had some issues. I really wish she wouldn't smoke around them.

New house?

Well, we are trying to buy a new house. I shouldn't even bring it up. I might jinx myself. Well, we went to look at it yesterday. We have driven by it a milllion times but we actually went in. It is in another chief's neighborhood, a buddy of my husband. He is the coach for the team Mike is asistant to. It is gorgous. All the kids were so tickled. The only down side is they have to switch schools. This one seems much nicer though.
Today, we went in to the office and talked numbers. We had the price lowered by a few thousand and got the loan process going. Right now we are just waiting for the approval call. We will hear about it in the morning. I will not be too crushed if we don't but it would be nice. If we get approved tomorrow, we close the 5th of October. We would wait until the weekend of the 15th, when he reenlists. This gives us time to paint and move some of the small stuff.
I had my eye exam yesterday. My eyes were dilated. Fun....LOL I had the worst time driving home. It is only like 4 blocks and 20 miles an hour but it was still rough. Hopefully when I get new glasses next week, my headaches will go away.

my daughter has a hearing problem

Today my eldest daughter was seen by an audiologist for fluid in her ears. Well, she has a hearing problem. It isn't really bad but bad enough for attention. We will try to solve it with allergy medications. They think that may be the reason for the fluid, hence the hearing problem. I know I suffer from the same thing. It feels like a pressure on your ear canal. You want to open your mouth wide to relieve the pressure but it just doesn't go away. I have to read lips while you speak with me if we are in a loud room. I wonder if she has to do the same and that is why she has a hard time listening.......

Saturday, our first trip!

It was a crazy Saturday, I tell you what! We took 15 girls down to the beach for the annual beach/river sweep. First off, there was hardly any trash to pick up! Now that really would not have been bad but it was so HOT out there with NO breeze at all! My family goes down there a lot, even on hot days but there is usually a breeze. It seriously would not have been so bad if it weren't for the heat. The girls were about done a half hour into it. They did get a frisbee out of it and the adults got a cool mesh bag with a zipper coin purse attached.
Honestly, the thing that made the day go sour is I got a migraine while there. It didn't really hit until I got home, THANK GOD! I took my migraine stuff, which by the way, doesn't work! I guess it would if I took it like it says, one pill every hour, it would do it but I don't want to take all the medication. I need to try Excedrin Migraine. The tension headache stuff kicks *ss!! I will have to remember next time I go to the store.
You know I do have a BIG vent!!! VIKINGS FOOTBALL!!! Oh, my gosh! Mike Tice is a true idiot! My mom says he is really BIG and sweet in person. She met him at a party last year. Lord, it seems like he got the job out of sheer luck that he just happened to be the assistant to Dennis Green. With all the racial crap, I really like Dennis. I don't know, I think him and Randy Moss brought it on themselves. You don't hear the "N" word brought up with Daunte (love you guy!) or with Kevin Garnett. Boy, I have ran into that guy a lot. All of his buddies lived in the same neighborhood as my sisters bf. I also ran into him at ToysRus, of all places. Small world? That and my mom used to help Daunte Culpepper out wiring his family money back when he was a fresh kid, new to first string on the Vikings.

This is something from a past post that I wanted to update with my accomplishments and where they are now.
My list of goals

• stabalize financially

We have evened out finally. Soon we will have a good savings set up!

• get bills evened out

Goes with the first one

• pay off our one loan

This will not happen until he reenlists

• start NFCU savings

Again, the first answer

• begin home school process for Michael

This has been put on hold until I get the house in order, yes laziness

• stick to fitness goals

When I get my sleep back on track and the house back, meaning until I get the fifth room turned into a TV/playroom. This goes for the next following goals.

set into pilates
get into 20 min walks on tread mill

I have not been posting. The reason? Things have been going so well. The only bad thing that is going on right now is my time clock is all out of wack! I am wide awake and it is almost midnight. I really want to get back on track.
Well, it looks like we are going to go see the house this weekend, the one we were originally going to buy. We never went and saw it! I really think this would be the best bet if we are going to do this. It is the least expensive house. Plus, Mike would get rides to work here.
Girl Scouts is going very well! We have FOUR new Brownies. That is SEVEN in all! Isn't that awesome? We have had two inquiries today. Latisha was supposed to get back to me with their numbers but must have got caught up with stuff.
This weekend, we are taking the girls to the annual Beach/River sweep. It will be our first event for the year. I am very excited to see how it turns out! The only thing I do NOT look forward to is getting up and being at our meeting spot at 8 am! I am so NOT a morning person, and never will be!
Well, I really should try to sleep. Just wanted to get my 2 cents in there!

I'm still alive!!!

It has been a wild ride lately, but luckily it is all done.......I hope. I am much better and so is Miss Emma. Girl Scouts started back up yesterday and went very well! I am excited for the new year to get going. We have so much planned for the girls. I also have a big leader camp training thing next month that I am sooooo looking forward to.
Well, I must go get the two babies up and go get an oil change. I am way over..... Wednesday is ladies day, so I get a large discount. I also need to run to council and pay for Locomotion, that Leader camp thing, before the early bird price goes up!

When will the week end?

Yeah, it has been one of those week! Dang, seriously this whole MONTH has been nuts! Emma doesn't even realize she has an owie. That is good. She is doing well and has a big girl bed now. Well, she isn't using it until later but we have it. Emma tried to sleep in it last night but kept getting out of bed.
This is the deal behind her bed. On Sunday, we went to Once Upon a Child to check it out and to see how I could go about selling this stroller I have.(this is one of the shopping spots I hit before her injury.)I ended up spending $12 on about 4 outfits for Emma, all name brands! I brought in the stroller the next day and got $20 store credit for it. I bought Michael and Emma more clothes. Well, I spoke with one of the ladies about bringing in another toddler bed to sell.
Next day, Tuesday, I brought in Michael's old firetruck toddler bed and a sit and stand stroller. (I have MANY strollers. STROLLER QUEEN!) I had enough to buy Emma a cottage toddler bed! I am so pleased! So is she. She is so not ready for it but we have it just the same. I couldn't pass on the deal seeing as they don't make them anymore.
I have to go catch up on cleaning. ESPECIALLY LAUNDRY! Oh, I found out I am NOT pregnant, for real. I guess that when you take antibiotics, it lowers the protection you have on birth control. No one told me about it last month so I was worried. ~WHEW!!!~ Not ready to go there, if again at all!

Emma was insured

Yes, another injury for our family. Emma fell out of my van and landed on a bolt that holds one of the legs of our car port. Yet another reason to buy the new house. A garage! She had three staples put in her head. At least that didn't hurt her. Her doctor put some numbing ointment on it and let it sit for about an hour. Afterwards he put them in without even a flinch from Emma. It doesn't look that bad actually. Seven hours at the hospital whooped my butt, that is for sure. I am ready to go and get the house back in order now that I am feeling better. I am still having really bad headaches but other than that, I am doing well. Off the schedule an appointment for my eye exam......

I need to air some things

I really need to vent and get things out. First off, I have been ill. Constant headaches are apart of my life right now. I have one everyday. My dr gave me stuff for dizziness, and two different headache medicines. I am so tired too! I would love to just get better and not be tired all the time!
The biggest thing on my mind again is that we are entertaining the thought of buying a house again. At first, we weren't going to do it because we didn't want to reenlist JUST for buying a house here. We were going to wait. This way he would get much more money. Well, to get extended to where he wants to be, he has to reenlist anyway. We were thinking of buying the house now, again. Buying the house is not the reason we are reenlisting now. This time, it would be because we want to.
I went over finances last night and found out it would cost us about $130 more to live in a brand new house over this falling apart mess. Plus, we could make some money off of it all in the end. Mind you that number goes up and down, depending on the season. I really went overboard on the numbers so more likely than not, the number will be even lower.
We also went over the pros and cons of both. The pros way outweighed the cons. I just don't want to rush into it all. I really think there is a reason God had us wait a bit. We will just have to wait and see how it all goes!

I am done with this week!

I am about done with this week already! First off, I was given all kinds of meds to help with different ailments. Dizziness, headaches and some super duper motrin. I am just plain tired today. I feel much better though.
I started a new troop web page. The other one just wasn't working for me. The one I built can be accessed my Latisha, the other leader. I really wanted her to be able to go in and add what she wants. The other two pages I built were just not what I thought our page should be. These I will not put out. Anyone can look at my pages but these should only be viewed by the parents and the girls. Privacy issues.....

Still sick!

Well, I am still sick....I woke up dizzy and lightheaded as all get out. I went back to sleep after dropping the girls off. Michael was running a temp and Emma was not willing to get up. I woke up at around 12 still dizzy. Damn! It is 8pm now and I am still dealing with it. I made an appointment for tomorrow to get checked. Plus, I need a referral for an eye exam. That saves us like $60. Then I just pay for the glasses. Can't beat that! I have a coupon from getting Lizzie's glasses for $165 off of the lenses. Cool, huh?
I am hoping all of these headaches and dizziness is just my need for new glasses. That or it might be from my massage last weekend. She really did a number on my nodes at the base of my head. That WAS the spot that was killing me on Sunday.

still sick

What a weekend!!

Yeah, this weekend was rough. We went to my sil's house. That was fine. I totally dig that! The only problem was I started getting sick while we were there. I mean sick....nausea, headache, just down right crappy. Yesterday, Sunday I was even sicker. I kind of just laid there on the couch in agony. The whole back of my head hurt. It felt like my brain (yes I have one!) was going to fall out. I took a small nap but still was just under the weather. I am much better today! I went to the bank, Walmart, did a few loads of laundry cleaned the down stairs bathroom, did some dishes and mopped the entire kitchen. Yes, I did a lot....
Talk about an awesome ending to Six Feet Under last night....WOW! I really liked how they pushed through time, showing how everyone pasted on. Claire lived FOREVER..... Finally, a show that knows how to end it properly, without just leaving it hanging......
I should go do some dishes and clean my own bathroom. I can get to the kids bathroom tomorrow........

I got my stroller!

I got Emma's new stroller through Fedex today. I LOOOOVE it!! It is a Silver Cross micro stroller. BEAUTIFUL! It is all black with pink accents. It came with a free acsot set if you get sick of the black and pink. I don't think I could though. That is why I bought it! Emma adores her new stroller. I like the fact that it is super lightweight and is easy to set up and use. Usually strollers have short handles...not this one! OK....enough....I have been high all day, if you couldn't tell. Not by any type of substance, thank you very much. (I only did that here and there in high school ;0) ) I really hope I don't have a drop off of this great UP.
This weekend I am going to visit my beloved sister in law. Of course I get to see my nephew and hold my brand, new neice as well! Can't wait!!
The only thing that I dread is when Mike gets home tonight. He has a chief thing tonight called 'the dining in.' Pretty much, the new chief inductees serve them dinner AND alcohol in their chokers. (their formal wear) I know he is going to get wasted. His 2 times a year will be tonight. As long as he pukes in the toilet, I am cool!

keep on keepin' on!

Yeah, I am not goofing with saying I am pregnant. I woke night before last half asleep horrified because I thought I was pregnant for real. It was one of those times when you think clearly and think it is true but you are still kind of dreaming but awake. Yeah, ok...that made no sense.... Well, no more goofing like that!
Everyone has been sick in the house. We actually slept in yesterday. I went back to bed after dropping the girls at school. Emma didn't wake up at all and MIchael woke up long enough to go the the bathroom. Poor kid sounded like a seal! Mike even came home early from work sick and switched night duty instructor days from yesterday to today. Those aren't really that bad though. He tutors the students from 6-9. Only three hours. Soooo much better than he old over night duties where it lasting into the next day. He occasionally has a duty where he goes from 7pm to 7am. His job is to babysit kids that are on restriction, transferring or on suicide watch. Fun huh? Oh, lord some of the stuff that goes on there sometimes. This one chick was on suicide watch. Well, she had to go to the bathroom and has to be watched while she goes, just in case she tries something. Well, one guy watches her and another guy watches the first guy, to protect them from sexual harrassment. Well, the one guy thought it was so gross that he had to watch some girl make a bowel movement and complained to my dh. LOL Think about it. All of these kids are usually between the ages of 18 and 21. No maturity yet.
Anyway, this morning I am going to shower, go grocery shopping and then clean. What a fun day!!

yet another change!

I am really pregnant! Kidding!! Seriously, we aren't having anymore. My dh talked to his carreer counselor today about the house thing. Well, if he waits to reenlist 2 more years, we will get about 47,000 up front instead of 25,000. The whole reason we were considering a house again is to sell it for more than we bought for more money down on a house is VA. Well, this way we get the money no ifs, ands, or buts. We don't have to play the sell the same time we buy game. I am so much at ease about it all now! I really wasn't fully down with doing the whole building a house thing. I have seen two families go through too much with new houses. I would be willing to put up with it IF we were staying longer than 2 1/2 years. I also did not want to risk any tax penalties from selling so early.
~DEEP, RELAXED BREATH~
Well, one change that is happening FOR REAL is we are turning our fifth bedroom into a TV/playroom in October. All I need to buy is a cheap TV stand and a futon frame. I knew I should hang onto our futon mattress! No more jumping off of my dresser onto my bed! My room will now become off limits, now that the TV will move out of it!

OOOH! I forgot about the day spa!

I can't believe I didn't post about my trip to the dayspa! Oh, my gosh I had a great time! My sil and I planned a great Saturday of pampering. She was going back to work and I have four kids. Enought said, right? Nah, I had needed it for a while.
Anyway, I started with a manicure and pedicure. She wasn't very good but it felt good! Then I went in back and had my massage. Ahhhhhh.....Then I had the salt scrub. Talk about great feeling! What it intails is having sea salts rubbed vigerously on your legs, arms, back, and stomach. All the dead skin is removed, leaving soft skin.
Then I showered and she did the mud wrap. I was left with that on for a while. Time just stood still so I don't really know how long it was on. After that I showered. Patty and I then got to sit with each other in our robes and had a smoothy and muffin. She had a guy do her massage. Nicolai. Really good looking Russian! He had done massage in Mexico, off cruise ships....you get the idea. Well, he farted while he was massaging her. Not a big deal right? Well, he told her he was so embarrassed! LOL
My favorite part of my spa treatments was the facial. OOOOHH I love facials! All the cleaning and massaging of my face, hands and feet.........I was just glowing when I got home! Boy, the trip home was hilarious. We both felt higher than a kite, if you know what I mean. Just laughing and being obnoxious! I even went the wrong way at first in the parking garage! LOL Over all, it was awesome! We found out that Patty Petty, Richard Petty's wife had gone there the weekend before!
I am starting Michael this week on his workbook. I know he will pick it up quickly and is very eager to learn. I hope he stays positive about learning through his life. I plan to make it fun for him. I will post on how that turns out!

The big change is....

I'm pregnant! No kidding! LOL We are building a house! We have thought a lot about it lately and a good deal has fallen into our laps. It is a beautiful 4 bedroom with a bonus room. I plan on turning the bonus room into a play room for the kids. I also plan to turn the formal livingroom into a den for Mike. What am I going to do with a formal livingroom?
The cool thing is that our mortgage will be less than our BAH. How cool is that. We have talked to one of the other chiefs that lives in the neighborhood about the utilities and they seem to run low. The school is just down the street and is great. I will probably continue to have the girls do Girl Scouts out of the base school. I am not going to leave Latisha all by herself. I will post new info as we go!

a new chapter?

We might be starting a new chapter in our life here soon! I can't say exactly what it is quite yet but it is definitely good! This is one of those things you don't want to say something about and jinx yourself. Hopefully, in the near future, I will be announcing our family's change of plans!!

Lots to do today!!

I am really looking forward to this weekend! I am going to a day spa with my lovely sil. We will be getting a salt scrub, mud wrap, facial, massage, manicure, pedicure, and makeup refresher. Of course I wear very little makeup anyway, so anything would be a refresher. LOL
My mood has been very "UP" lately. Things are going well now that the girls are in school. I still need to buy them some more clothes. The only suck *ss thing about living in the south is that there is no point in buying new jeans until October, November. It is too hot here for them! Then again, it is a good thing because the kids can get by with nice summer clothes. Target has a great, inexpensive section for just that! It can hold us off until our bonus in October. Then I will go hog wild and get them some school clothes.
~~OFF TO CLEAN!!!~~~
yippie right? LOL

Doing good!

Things are going so good right now. I am just waiting for the brick to fall. Finances are staightening out, my fitness goals are coming along and my biggest thing is my sleep and wake periods are getting sorted out. I have to admit, it was so hard to stay up today.......Emma got up with the girls and I knew if Michael will be successful with staying dry at night, I had to wake him and keep him on a normal schedule. My goals are really coming through and getting met! Now, I need to get into a good fitness routine and prepare Michael for learning at home.

When I lie in bed, trying to sleep, I am ready to go with going for walks, doing my pilates, or using the treadmill. You know, I used to WISH with all my might that I had a treadmill so I wouldn't have to go out in the heat. Now I have one, and never use it. It is in Mike's room, which is not in view of Emma. I wouldn't mind walking today but it is wet and rainy. Maybe I can fit it in when the girls get home from school. That is my dead, "I need energy" time. I just stuggle to stay awake and keep going. This would give the girls some down time from school instead of jumping right into homework. Then I can sneak off to the treadmill for 20 minutes. Let's face it! It will take me a while to work myself up to a good time. Then when I get a bit more fit, I can walk in the mornings. By then it will have cooled into the 70's.

The first day of school

Today......the first day of school......YIPPEE!!!
Seriously, it is great that the girls get to go off to school. They need to get their minds molded and the social interaction. I get a break from them but honestly, it is Emma I need a break from. Can she go to school?

Things are off to a good start here, minus being tired as all get out! I didn't get much sleep and could use a nap. Hopefully this will get Emma on the right time for bed. Oh, I also suckered into buying a three pack of babas. I have had no sleep in the past week from weaning her. I will take them away again when we are back on schedule.

Emma's Birthday!!

Yes! Today my baby turned 2!! What a great weekend it has been!!!
To start, my mom has moved out of her abusive relationship of 26 years....He had a DUI and was put in the workhouse for the weekend. She took the oportunity to move her stuff into it while he was gone. We will finally be able to go home to MN to visit!

Our printer broke last month. It just would not feed the paper through! Well, our warranty came through and we got a brand new one! Shoot, the one we had was less than a year old.

My greatest news is my youngest has turned two! We took her shopping and bought her a little Dora doll, a stuffed puppy, and a small magnadoodle. She wanted a Dora chair but her Auntie is getting her one this week. She loved her Dora cake! Could you catch on that she LOVES Dora?
I must call it quits. She needs to go to sleepys. Ooh, and she is off of her babas completely!!

Hey! What happened to my post!

This will just be a reiteration. I seem to post more about the bad stuff. Well, this is a venting blog but I would love to put in the good stuff now. Well, now that I am having more pleasing days, I will!
The best news lately is that my trash, annoying neighbors have moved out this week! Yippee!!!! Seriously, I couldn't stand them at ALL. I spoke with my neighbor directly next to me, the one who was connected to them, and they got screwed by them. Money, a nail in his motorcycle tire, etc. Loong story.
Things seriously have been going well right now. I guess the new computer has helped. LOL I was also really looking forward to Girl Scouts. I really am looking forward to working with Letisha, the new leader of our troop. I really hope she sticks to her guns about this checking account thing. I know she is a strong woman and will hold her own.....Plus, she too wants to bring this troop up to par.

I am so much better!

I can't take much more of it!

I really can't take much of the mess that my kids make! I have kept the house in great shape the past few months. It really has been neat and tidy. Today just burst my bubble and hope completely. Michael's room has legos everywhere, Emily's room is totalled.....My room, I just found has marker all over the walls and on my dresser. Emma dumped HALF of a full bottle of hand soap all over the floor, from the kitchen to the fifth downstairs room. All which happened during my one show that I watch on Sundays. I am getting deeper into a hole of darkness. I am anxious all the time.....I don't feel like doing much of anything and don't want to deal with anything. Emma is awake hollering in her crib. I wish I had a grandparent I could just send them to for a week. Mike is like a third breast......just gets in the way. He walked in on Emma doing the soap mess and didn't offer to help clean her or the floor up. I guess he did just get off of work. Yeah, he went in and tutored his retards for four hours. Hard work.....
I need help out of this mess.

What is positive in my life......

1. I have four healthy, beautiful children
2. I have a healthy, loving husband
3. I am healthy
4. We have a new, reliable car
5. We have a large home

I should look at the ups but the downs are killing me at this moment. I know I will get over them in the morning with proper sleep but geez! Plus, I compare my life to others around me, people I know, certain friends and family and I have such a great life! I just hope that God has blessings coming for them too soon. I know at least that my Mom's is coming next weekend.....and a friend of mine will hopefully get a healthy little girl this fall. After all THAT girl has gone through and will continue to go through, I hope at least that will come true!

Green Fried Computers....

My computer fried.... great right? My dh suggested we have a friend build us one to help us get by until our October bonus. Hell no! Been there, done that. We went and took out a small loan and bought a new tower. It is quite a bit faster, more everything. I still don't have everything connected onto it though. Soon enough. I am just happy to get back on!

I have come to new spot in my life. I feel like I am ready to grow to the next level in life. I am ready to carry on with our finances and have them clear up. I am ready to get more physically fit. I am ready to start a brand new troop with our girls.

My list of goals

1. stabalize financially
2. get bills evened out
3. pay off our one loan
4. start NFCU savings
5. begin home school process for Michael
6. stick to fitness goals
7. set into pilates
8. get into 20 min walks on tread mill

I am set for a brand new school year! I am ready to grow and move on!

the past few weeks........

I have had a WILD few weeks. From the birth of my second neice to the visit of my sister and mil. All was very pleasant, minus a few things here or there. The birth went great! My neice is beautiful! My sister's visit was nice minus a little tension the last two days. I LOVE my sister but we get on each others nerves sometimes.
My first niece, my sisters child is a gorgous, chunky monkey! She has more rolls than the Michelin man. LOL More to cuddle up on. You wouldn't know she is only 3 mos and 5 WEEKS premmie.
The one thing that went well that I was dreading was the reunion with my dh's estanged mother. Their relationship has been very rocky. LOOOONG story. I have just stood out of that one totally. It was all on him. At first he really didn't want to even see her. Then she came down to visit Patty and hopefully Mike. She and her husband came here to visit. It was a tad strained but went very well. We went up the following day and it went better. In fact, we plan on visiting them for Christmas. My only fear is that she decides she doesn't want to put anymore effort into the relationship and Mike and my kids get hurt. I think she is for real this time. It was really great to get to hang out with her and Steve, her husband. He really dug hanging out with the kids. Shoot, he is a better grandfather for the kids than their real father. I am so not going there right now........the last post shows my reasoning... Here is another great example. They all had a little get together at Patty's. It went well until he opened his big, fat mouth. He told Steve,"Just wait until YOU get grandkids." Of course Patty pointed to Andrew and said that HE was his grandchild too. ~~SIGH~~

Do you know or have ever met a person who you just hate? Well, my father in law is one of those people. I hate him so much. He is the stupidest man I have ever met. To call him a man is giving him too much credit. This is the moron who locked me away in a back room for six months.
BACK STORY
When Mike and I were still first going out, a friend of mine he didn't like moved into my parents house. He was so apposed, he had me move in with him at his dad's house. He dad is the biggest D*ck I have ever met. I was not allowed to leave the apartment unless Mike went, not allowed to have a key.....I was locked away in Mike's room with no human contact except when Mike got home from school. (Senior year in high school. I didn't go anymore because of political reasons) When we were all moving out, Mike's two buddies, my mom, his sister, and her boyfriend did all the work. He sat on his ass the entire time and cussed them out, IN FRONT OF ANOTHER ADULT about how they didn't amount to anything and should hav done this and that.
A few years down the road, he comes to stay with us in VA until he gets on his feet. Apparently, my lovely husband invited him to stay permenantly. Oh, that didn't go over at ALL. He did odd jobs here and there, didn't cut it and ended up moving back home to Florida with mommy and daddy. Retard...Lazy....
As time goes by in FL, he does odd jobs here and there. He couldn't keep a job because of his mouth and laziness. He takes care of his father. A noble gesture but another excuse to sponge. Oh, did I mention the fact that his sister was paying the rent and bills for the apartment in Minnesota....for SEVEN YEARS? Well, after the passing of his father, he still did not get a job. Meanwhile, his older sister had been living there, maintaining a full time job, helping out their father and mother. Well, after the passing of their mother, they moved to Columbia, SC near us and in the same town as my sister in law. They have been there for at least three months and does not have a job. Yet again, his sister pays the bills and gives this grown "man" an allowance. He b*tches and moans about his diabetes and how sick he gets sometimes but eats sweets ALL the time. Just last night he had part of a cookie cake and his blood sugar went through the roof. Of course he didn't test, it was just how he felt. He was at our house the day before and had THREE cookies. He treats his children with contempt, and pays no mind to his grandchildren. He constantly asks Mike when he is getting his "G string" cut. I just let him know we are having about 7 more. Of course we aren't but the gullible sh*t shuts his mouth after that. I can't take much more or him. Mike is done with him as well.

Mike's mother is coming this week to visit Patty. Mind you this is the woman who abandon them when they were just 2 and 3. We went and visited her when Lizzie was almost 2 and she told all these lies about Patty, like she started her bed on fire, while her and her new husband were in it. She has two boys with dh#2 that are only like 2 or 3 years younger than Patty. She kept them. I don't want my kids to have anything to do with her. She is not breaking their hearts. They are supposed to come down on Wednesday of Thursday. I am going to have to talk to Patty about it. I didn't hear her right about inviting them over. I didn't hear the her mother would be with. My sister will be in town with her baby so I don't really want that many guests anyway. If I don't have them over, Patty will not let me live it down though.

Money woes....

Well, our money woes are killing me! They are just stupid mistakes. I don't know how many times I have said these same words. "I have to dig us out and stay out of being behind." I don't think we ever will be ahead of the game! It sickens me that we get in this predicament every mother flipping time!! Shoot, we paid off all of our bills, bought all new furniture PLUS, we borrowed $5000 to a family member when we sold our house. Then, yes, AGAIN! We got back behind. ~sigh~
My youngest obstained an insury, MY FAULT, and is still having problems with it. I put her over a baby gate and she landed funny on her left leg. Loong story short, after many Xrays, blood work and a trip to the Childrens ER at MUSC, there is nothing wrong. She is still limping and it has been almost two weeks! If she doesn't improve, I will take her in on Monday.
I take a CPR/first aide class tomorrow. Fun. Excitement. It is from 8 am to 5 pm. Great, huh? Yes, I am dripping with sarcasm. It MUST be done. Well, I want to do it and have it under my belt for Girl Scouts. Ooh, I started a page for our troop. I have to ask the other leaders if they approve and if the parents don't mind their kids picture posted on it. I will see if I can't privatize the web site so only people that know about it can go to it or something. I don't want perverts going on to see our girls on there. We will get to that later.

Well, where do I start? We are screwed yet again with MONEY! We were given more money for repayment for a loan from a family member and we blew our checking account! We are -330. There is a clothing allowance coming soon at least. We need to get out of this hole we put ourselves in.
This is the way it has worked forever. We get behind, get a large sum of money, pay everything off and then get stuff. We continue to live like we have that large sum of money and then get in the hole again. The thing is, we have $800 a month EXTRA after bills AND food. I don't get how we screw ourselves. I let "the boob" aka my husband talk me into stupid SH*T and then we are F*CKED again.
Ooh, on top of it....I think I sprained my baby's ankle. I was mad that The Boob would not come and get her. I was trying to clean out the van and she almost broke the CD player. I brought her in and put her down a little too hard. Her ankle took the brunt of it. Bad Mommy...She loves me now though. I gave her some Tylenol with Codeine. She still will not walk because of the pain. I need a vacation somewhere exotic......... J

migraines....

My life seems to be one big migraine lately. I don't throw that term "migraine" around either. Think back to how many of your friends have b*tched about having one. Mine are migraines with aura. It starts with spots on your eyes that come from no where. You really can't see past them. Then the pain starts. I have been ill since Friday. Nonstop. All I want is to sleep. That is the only thing that keeps my eyes from falling out of my head.

What is my life? I read back on my old page. My family has their little goings on. Then there is me. I am in limbo. I totally redid my page and what am I doing? Nothing. Oh, wait. I am trying to lose all the FAT I have accumulated over the years of child bearing and depression. Now I must leave to sit in the bathroom for awhile.

I hate not having money!

You know, I really don't get it. I mean, I kinda do for now because I went to VA twice in a two week period for the birth of my niece. We make a HELL of a lot of money. We are left over with some $800 after bills and leaving $600 a month for food. Yet we are always hurting for money! I even have a family member paying me money monthly for a loan they owe me and we are STILL hurting! I allow my dh to spend here and there. Example: I was given $400 this past weekend for my loan. We spent $110 at Target. Dh decided he wanted a $20 game. He knew this had to last us through the week into the weekend. I relucantly agreed. Well, A**hole stuck in a $16 bottle of Ripped Fuel! This is how I feel I enable him. I allow it. I just am going to have to stick to my guns and be the B wach in this situation. I make a budget. A REASONABLE budget. Every two weeks I leave $300 for food and about $250 for incidentals. Mother F-R~! This is the base of my depression and crappy moods.

Movin' on up!

Movin' on up!

Long time, no see!

I have decided this will be more of a vent blog. I have a wonderful weightloss journal that is helping me wonderfully.
Well, I have been doing well with the weight loss. I still am coming up tired but have not been taking my vitamins like I should. Yeah, I am a retard. Also, I have been having a downer time. I felt better Monday. I figure Girl Scout camp did that for me. It was wonderful and refreshing! It helped me realize how much my weight hinders me. My bad ankle swole up something awful! Gross.
The kids' last day is tomorrow. I will have to keep them busy during the summer months. My plan is to cover a lot of Try its in their Try it book. It will be a load of fun! Michael can participate and have some fun, too. That and I would love to visit the library as well. Keep them reading. Hopefully, it will be a funfilled summer!

The way it could be

I could see my life being so much different from what it is today. I watched Spanglish last night and wished that I could be similar to the wife in the movie, fitness wise. I would love to be in that kind of physical condition. Shoot, I have her mental condition right now! Nah, but I would love to see myself in that kind of gung ho fitness mentality. If I could just get on past the tired all the time phase.....
I just feeled so weighted down as I write. When you read this, does it just make you tired to think about my being tired? Just sluggish......I really would love to look on line for a toxin removal for my body. Something very vegan would do so well for me. I just feel full of junk, literally. I feel weighed down by burger and fries, junk food, chocolate, salt........even if I have to cut meat in general out to get myself cleaned out and 'lighter' in a sense. I am not talking weight wise. I feel physically weighed down in my insides and by all the extra water weight. Bi*ch and moan........DO SOMETHING YA LAZY B wach~

I am a retard!

Lord have mercy! You don't know how retarded you are until you reread what your wrote. The last one was so stupid! So teenage retardedness! True, I would love to have another but the reponsiblility financially and emotionally can be draining. Do I want one to have another baby or to bring another life in the world? That or just to be pregnant and give birth again? May just to get the attention on some atomical level? If I look at it that way, or the thoughts of "why did I have the last one?" just makes me want to go in and get the surgery over with so I don't even have the option to have another. Shhhyyyit! Plus, I would like to have a life after children.....If I keep having them then when will I have time to be without children before I am too old? Plus, I am so close to thirty and found my first grey hair! Yuck right? Anyway, I should go veg in and watch some TV. Don't feel up to anything else. I really should go wake up Miss Thang so she sleeps tonight. That and the boy. Oh, and he did so well with his big sisters yesterday at hitting the ball. He will look so cute in a baseball uniform this Spring!